"IT"

Here "IT" goes again. This is what I felt when "IT" started. But "IT" just ended up in chaos. "IT" turned my entire life around. "IT" turned me upside down. From perfect to a big mess. From better to worst. And "IT" even made me reached to the point where I wanted to be in TOTAL SILENCE.

My life would have been better if it weren't for "IT". I could have accomplished more than what I already have. I could have enjoy doing things that I have been planning for quite sometime. Things could have been running smoothly. But, just because of "IT", everything went topsy-turvy.

Now, there are so many "IF'S" swimming in my head. If only I were too careful. If only I were too cautious. If only I was not acting dumbed. If only I wasn't stupid enough. If only "IT" didn't happen, I could have been standing on better grounds.

But, hey, I have no regrets to it coz I was the one who made the choice to be under the spell. But I, even, am thankful that "IT" happened coz "IT" made me learned a lot. "IT" made me realize some things about myself on how I should run matters in life. "IT" made me stand on my feet and start to relive the life that fell into the pit of darkness.

And, now, here "IT" is. As part of life that I'm going to relive, time has given me another chance to be in "IT" again. This is another chance for me to handle such matter better than how I handled "IT" before. Another chance that should not be dealt with hastiness to avoid another mess in life. Another chance that should be dealt with a lot of cautiousness. Another chance for me to play smart and not dumb. Another chance for me to carry things out with maturity in me.

I'll just hold on to the thought that if it's for me then it will come. And if that is how it's gonna be, so shall it be.