A Help or A Hassle?

"The guilt of being useless slowly devours my soul and harshly inflicting guilt into my heart."

I find myself useless of not being able to help despite the fact that I did everything that I could do, exerting all the effort that I have left.

I was his only refuge, as he would say.  I am the only person he can turn to right now.   I did tried to help out but did not contribute much solution to what he's going through.  And with that, I can consider myself as a failure.  A useless friend.  Hearing the words from him that he's desperate, hopeless and is losing it, drives me to ask myself, "Was that really all that I can do?  Was that my best effort?"

People who heard my story would say that I already did everything to help him out and there's no reason for me to be so obnoxious about it or murder myself with guilt.  But if I were to speak for myself, I would say I was a bit of a slacker back there.  I did not give much effort.

And now, I'm so damn worried of what's gonna happen to him next.  Will things get worst that would make me more guilty of and have myself to blame and carry this conscience with me forever?  Or would all of these come to a perfectly good end?

For now, all I can say is that I'm totally furious at myself and so worried sick for him.  And the last thing we need is a miracle.

To All I Love

Today is not just a day for couples or for lovebirds.  This a day for all of us.  It's the day for us to love, to be loved and to share love.  The day for us to celebrate for all the love we have in our hearts.

And as for me, it's another day where I get the chance to say what I have to say, do what I have to do for all those I love and for all those I hold so dear.

Where should I begin?!  Hmmm...

How could I ever miss to mention our ever merciful Father.  No one or nothing can ever surpass His greatness.  Only He who has love me unconditionally.  A kind of love that knows no boundary.  Even the most notorious man on earth, He'd still find a way to cradle that person back.  Just like me, no matter how I've been so stubborn and how I've been such a sinner, He always knocks on my heart and been trying to help me out find my way back to Him.

And of course, He always have my folks as His instruments who could help me out in everything.  Without their constant guidance, I could be out on the street, living a wandering life.  They may not be right at all times but, hey, they are just humans like me.  But then again, through them, I was given the chance to live and enjoy everything about life.

Speaking of life, who could ever live it without friends?!  If such human exists, that could be so sad.  I mean, all of us would need a friend.  Even just one friend.  And I considered myself lucky to have such good friends.  Friends who stick with me through thick and thin.  Friends who had me at my best and far more better, at my worst.  Friends I can always count on.  Friends who always remained true.

And to one friend that I have loved and will forever love.  Despite what happened between us, my heart still beats for you.  Losing you may have been painful.  But loving you from afar makes me happy and contented.  The willingness of my heart to wait for you even if it takes forever may sound crazy for others but as for me, I can live with it with no regrets.

And I would like to commend those I love and those who have loved me and is still loving me.

Happy Hearts day to all of you!!! ^_^

Heart's Day for All

It's the month of February.  The town is painted with red.  Red balloons, red hearts, red roses all over the place.  And, obviously, people would know what this would mean.  Even a 3 year old child could determine that Valentines Day is just one sleep away.

A lot are now preoccupied with what they're gonna do on that day and how are they gonna celebrate it romantically with their partners.  Ideas are just flowing from time to time.  People just wanted the best on this day.  Flowers of expensive costs doesn't bother the guys as long as they could give the most beautiful ones.  Ladies don't mind the blisters they get from spending all day walking around, looking for the perfect gift.  They wanted it to be the most memorable and unforgettable moment.  They wanted to make their partners happy.

Now that goes for the couples.

But what about those without partners?!  The single ones?!

Can't they be happy on this day?!  Can't they celebrate this day as well?!

Many would say that this day is day for couples, for lovebirds.  But can't Valentines Day, a day for all, even to single people?!

There are a lot more to just celebrating it with partners.  The day can be celebrated with your family, your friends, and all of those whom you love so dear.  Single guys and ladies don't have to be lonely on this day.  They don't have to isolate their selves at home.  Others would tend to indulge their selves to work to divert their attention from the lonely feeling that they're getting on this Day. 

Why does it have to be this way?!  I mean, com'on!  Don't pity yourself much for being single on that day.  Don't pressure yourself much for not having a partner yet on that day. 

There's more to life than just having a partner.

HAPPY HEARTS DAY TO ONE AND ALL!!! ^_^