Breakup Blues

It's been 7 months since we had our break up.  We've been together for just only 2 months.  But it seemed that it affected me like I'm losing a couple of years of a relationship.  I took it so hard like it was the most tragic event that I have to encounter.  The worst of all worsts.

Because of such, more likely, I find myself staring at the open with a blank face.  My mind wandering its way back to the memories that we had.

Reminiscing those moments we spent together.  Rekindling those days that I was by your side, damn worried, because you got so sick.  Remembering those times that you and I pretty much talk about anything under the sun.

So many memories that reminds me so much of you.

I'm half-crazy over you.  No, not just half!  I'm totally crazy over you.  I'm head over heels with you.  I'm so in love with you.

Doesn't those stuffs make it more obvious of how it affects me so much?!  My blog says it all.  My facebook status, my twitter tweets.  Those sleepless nights.  Those tears.

I'll never get over you!

'Tis Christmas

Christmas is just a few hours from now.  I'm kinda excited about it, honestly.  After 3 years of spending Christmas at work, I finally get to enjoy noche buena with my family.  I finally get to celebrate Christmas at home.

The excitement I have can be compared to that of a child.  Can't blame myself for feeling this way.  For the past years, I've been spending the holidays just in my work station.  I witness some fireworks but I just watched them behind the glass window of our office.  On my way to the office, I saw people on the streets mingling with their neighbors, counting down the hours for Christmas eve, greeting each other "Happy Holidays".  That was kinda sad for me.

But now, I get to do those stuffs as well.  I get to enjoy the season without being stuck at my work station, answering calls from people I don't really know of.

'Tis the Christmas to remember.

Happy Holidays everyone!

For You

This blog is intended for you.  I'm not sure if you can read this or if you will read this.  But I wrote this to let you know what I want to say and how I still feel for you.

It's your big day today.  I just wanna greet you a happy candles cake day!  I wish you would have a great day today.  You are so blessed with your friends and with your family as well.  Just do take care of your life and health.  You know how much I care for you.  You are a witness to that.

Anyways, I do miss you so much.  I miss those days that we were still together.  I miss those days were you never missed to paint a smile on my face.  I miss those times that you made me feel everything is gonna be just fine.  Even those moments were you made me feel that someone is still there when everyone turns their back away from me.

I should have hold on much longer.  I shouldn't have given up on us too easily.  But the fear of being ignored overruled me.  The fear of being just the second one to your family caused me to let go.  I know I was a bit selfish on that matter.  But I am not asking for all of your time.  All I wanted was for you to spare even a single minute for me.  Even a single empty text message would do as long as I can see your name appearing on my phone.  With that, you would assure me that you still exists for me.  Is that too much to ask?

I don't know how you feel for me right at this moment.  But all I know is that I still do, honestly, love you so much.  Call me a crazy, a stupid or a freak but I still have that little hope in me that somehow, someday, time will give us the chance to be together again.  And if that chance would come, I would surely hold on to it and never let go of that again.

Once again, have a happy natal day!

I miss you and I love you!

SRP (Sunset Ride with Papa) Part II

Once again, I found myself just situated behind my dad who's driving the motorcycle.  It's a bit uncomfortable since I got a couple of bags sitting on my lap.  But, nonetheless, nothing can stop me from appreciating the beauty of sunset.

The street is a bit busy today.  It's filled with the rumbling noise coming from the different rides around us.  It's jam packed with travelers eagerly heading to each of their humble abode.  But then again, all of these has no sense to me when I've got my eye on the relaxing view of the horizon.

I never get tired of nature appreciation.  It doesn't bore me.  Even if I would just sit on the mountain top all day, watching the sun from the time it rises until the time it sets down, for me it would be a soothing thing to do.

SRP (Sunset Ride with Papa)

A sunset ride.

As we entered the vicinity yesterday afternoon, a picture of a beautiful sunset was revealed.  The horizon was painted with flaming red.  The ocean calmly awaits for the day to end.  The street lights brighten the road for the travelers.  And as we speed up, I can feel the strong blow of the wind.

Vehicles may be rumbling down the road, racing their hearts out towards their destination.  But I can still hear the children laughing, playing, running around the street side.  Their little happy voice calms me within.  Giving me a moment to reminisce my childhood days.

As we go along the way, I can see the people getting ready for the night.  I see them out of their houses also await for the sun to set, for the day to end.  Some are attending to their front yard.  Some are preparing for supper.  Some are mingling with their neighbors.

With this ride, I have realized that life is as simple as that.  At the start of the day, people start to work on their daily routine until the end of the day.  As the sun finally rests, it would only mean one thing.  Another day to live life as simple as it can be.

A Heart's Cry

 I was never contented 'Til I found you.  I was so happy that, finally, we've been Together.  And all I ever wanted was to Grow old with you.  I was thinking that When God made you, God must have spent a little more time on you.  From the heart, I promised myself to be with and to love you always.

But, then, came my worst nightmare.  I may have gave up on us easily but, still, I stay in love with you.

I admit that I'm Half crazy over you.  Not just half-crazy but totally over you.  Even head over heels.

Thought I had my One last cry over you but I was wrong.  Many sleepless nights followed that tears just keep pouring down.  My friends would say that one last talk to clear things out would do Before I let you go but it's not enough for me.  I don't mind if you stick to enjoying your life but Why can't it be us?!

I have waited before, then, I can still Wait for you.