For You

This blog is intended for you.  I'm not sure if you can read this or if you will read this.  But I wrote this to let you know what I want to say and how I still feel for you.

It's your big day today.  I just wanna greet you a happy candles cake day!  I wish you would have a great day today.  You are so blessed with your friends and with your family as well.  Just do take care of your life and health.  You know how much I care for you.  You are a witness to that.

Anyways, I do miss you so much.  I miss those days that we were still together.  I miss those days were you never missed to paint a smile on my face.  I miss those times that you made me feel everything is gonna be just fine.  Even those moments were you made me feel that someone is still there when everyone turns their back away from me.

I should have hold on much longer.  I shouldn't have given up on us too easily.  But the fear of being ignored overruled me.  The fear of being just the second one to your family caused me to let go.  I know I was a bit selfish on that matter.  But I am not asking for all of your time.  All I wanted was for you to spare even a single minute for me.  Even a single empty text message would do as long as I can see your name appearing on my phone.  With that, you would assure me that you still exists for me.  Is that too much to ask?

I don't know how you feel for me right at this moment.  But all I know is that I still do, honestly, love you so much.  Call me a crazy, a stupid or a freak but I still have that little hope in me that somehow, someday, time will give us the chance to be together again.  And if that chance would come, I would surely hold on to it and never let go of that again.

Once again, have a happy natal day!

I miss you and I love you!