A Help or A Hassle?

"The guilt of being useless slowly devours my soul and harshly inflicting guilt into my heart."

I find myself useless of not being able to help despite the fact that I did everything that I could do, exerting all the effort that I have left.

I was his only refuge, as he would say.  I am the only person he can turn to right now.   I did tried to help out but did not contribute much solution to what he's going through.  And with that, I can consider myself as a failure.  A useless friend.  Hearing the words from him that he's desperate, hopeless and is losing it, drives me to ask myself, "Was that really all that I can do?  Was that my best effort?"

People who heard my story would say that I already did everything to help him out and there's no reason for me to be so obnoxious about it or murder myself with guilt.  But if I were to speak for myself, I would say I was a bit of a slacker back there.  I did not give much effort.

And now, I'm so damn worried of what's gonna happen to him next.  Will things get worst that would make me more guilty of and have myself to blame and carry this conscience with me forever?  Or would all of these come to a perfectly good end?

For now, all I can say is that I'm totally furious at myself and so worried sick for him.  And the last thing we need is a miracle.

Building the gap

I can’t just sit and watch on my friends having indifference.  I have to do something about it.  None of us here on earth are perfect.  Conflicts are normal.  But letting it sleep and do nothing about it is beyond normal.  The fire begins from a smoke.  Big things starts from small things.  If misunderstandings are ignored, then, it becomes the root of hatred.  So, instead of tolerating it and just let it pass, sit down for a moment and have a small settling talk to avoid the gap of friendship.

Total Opposite

Things just happened so fast. One minute, we're chatting on Facebook and the next thing I know, BOOM! we're sisters. I never thought our friendship would come this far. Just imagine two humans from different worlds came together and clicked. She is a sweet girl and I am not. She is a girlie girl and I am the opposite. She's a bit pessimistic while I am the other way. She kinda like mushy stuffs while I totally hate being one. She likes bright colors but all I see is black. She expresses what she feels while I totally hold back my emotions. She loves to be cuddled always while I just want it when in the mood. She's kinda have a weak character that can become strong while I am characterized as strong who sometimes cannot accept my weakness. Though we may have a lot of differences but we also have something in common. Both of us plays DOTA (LOLz). Both of us loves chocolates. Both of us loves adventure. Both of us loves the outside world. Both of us loves to explore. Both of us are cute (Way mo react...LOLz). Both of us are hard-headed, strong-willed. And I know that both of us are fighters. So, the both of us have our commonalities as well as our differences. In creating a bond of friendship, it's not always base on your commonalities. A friendship can be considered stronger when both of you were able to work on your differences. And as I always bear in mind, no matter who the person is or what the person is or where the person came from, he/she can be your friend if you just learn to accept of how he/she is being mold into a good being.