I'm the kind of girl who doesn't settle living a home buddy life. I am a person who wants to go to places. Places that I have never been. I want to explore. Go for adventure. See different things, different views. Meet new people. Be in a whole new environment.
I mean, I only have one life to live and I don't intend to imprison it within the 4 corners of my humble abode. There's a big world out there, ready to be explored and discovered. Tough world, ready to be conquered.
Well, not really much with the conquering. All I want is to see the world beyond my comfort zone.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Odds of the mind
Living in a dream of nightmare again…
I guess my wish of knowing you more is just so impossible to do…
I don’t wanna play around with emotions…this is for real…
For someone who’s been murdered by LOVE once, surely, would not allow another mayhem to destroy what is being left by the tragic fate.
I guess my wish of knowing you more is just so impossible to do…
I don’t wanna play around with emotions…this is for real…
For someone who’s been murdered by LOVE once, surely, would not allow another mayhem to destroy what is being left by the tragic fate.
Monday, April 05, 2010
Bantayan in Catmon
I was so damn excited about the Bantayan trip. Bantayan is all I have in mind for the entire week. But before that, we still have one more shift to accomplish then we're off.
In the morning of our last shift, I woke up early. I intended to because I still have to pack my things up for the trip before going to work because we'll be leaving right after the end of our shift. But much to my surprise, the excitement I just had felt for the entire week was gone. I mean, I no longer have that eagerness to get ready with all the stuffs that I'm gonna need. In fact, I was just sitting around, doing a movie marathon while waiting for the time.
An hour before I leave for work, the wind of change blew in. Out of the blue, I decided not to go and be in somewhere else. It was my all-time wish to start my summer with a blast and Bantayan was a perfect place to fulfill it. But to avoid too much complications, I came up with the heart-crushing decision to stay and be left behind by my colleagues and head my way to Catmon. I have to go to Catmon. I really need to go to Catmon.
My reasons may be ambiguous in this post but sooner or later, you would know and understand why I did such.
In the morning of our last shift, I woke up early. I intended to because I still have to pack my things up for the trip before going to work because we'll be leaving right after the end of our shift. But much to my surprise, the excitement I just had felt for the entire week was gone. I mean, I no longer have that eagerness to get ready with all the stuffs that I'm gonna need. In fact, I was just sitting around, doing a movie marathon while waiting for the time.
An hour before I leave for work, the wind of change blew in. Out of the blue, I decided not to go and be in somewhere else. It was my all-time wish to start my summer with a blast and Bantayan was a perfect place to fulfill it. But to avoid too much complications, I came up with the heart-crushing decision to stay and be left behind by my colleagues and head my way to Catmon. I have to go to Catmon. I really need to go to Catmon.
My reasons may be ambiguous in this post but sooner or later, you would know and understand why I did such.
Monday, March 08, 2010
It could have been
March 8, 2010.
Hmmm, I wonder what's with today?!
It's not my birthday. Not even a member of my family is celebrating their birthday today. Neither of my friends celebrates their natal day today. Even the couples I know, none of them are celebrating their monthsary or anniversary today.
But, if there was still us, it could have been ours. We could be celebrating our first year of being together. We could have been making a memorabilia out of this day. We could have shared this special moment.
Unfortunately, this day will just remain as a black and white memory. A memory that will be a part of the shadow of my past. And right at this instance, all I can say is,
"It could have been..." =(
Hmmm, I wonder what's with today?!
It's not my birthday. Not even a member of my family is celebrating their birthday today. Neither of my friends celebrates their natal day today. Even the couples I know, none of them are celebrating their monthsary or anniversary today.
But, if there was still us, it could have been ours. We could be celebrating our first year of being together. We could have been making a memorabilia out of this day. We could have shared this special moment.
Unfortunately, this day will just remain as a black and white memory. A memory that will be a part of the shadow of my past. And right at this instance, all I can say is,
"It could have been..." =(
Saturday, February 27, 2010
A Help or A Hassle?
"The guilt of being useless slowly devours my soul and harshly inflicting guilt into my heart."
I find myself useless of not being able to help despite the fact that I did everything that I could do, exerting all the effort that I have left.
I was his only refuge, as he would say. I am the only person he can turn to right now. I did tried to help out but did not contribute much solution to what he's going through. And with that, I can consider myself as a failure. A useless friend. Hearing the words from him that he's desperate, hopeless and is losing it, drives me to ask myself, "Was that really all that I can do? Was that my best effort?"
People who heard my story would say that I already did everything to help him out and there's no reason for me to be so obnoxious about it or murder myself with guilt. But if I were to speak for myself, I would say I was a bit of a slacker back there. I did not give much effort.
And now, I'm so damn worried of what's gonna happen to him next. Will things get worst that would make me more guilty of and have myself to blame and carry this conscience with me forever? Or would all of these come to a perfectly good end?
For now, all I can say is that I'm totally furious at myself and so worried sick for him. And the last thing we need is a miracle.
I find myself useless of not being able to help despite the fact that I did everything that I could do, exerting all the effort that I have left.
I was his only refuge, as he would say. I am the only person he can turn to right now. I did tried to help out but did not contribute much solution to what he's going through. And with that, I can consider myself as a failure. A useless friend. Hearing the words from him that he's desperate, hopeless and is losing it, drives me to ask myself, "Was that really all that I can do? Was that my best effort?"
People who heard my story would say that I already did everything to help him out and there's no reason for me to be so obnoxious about it or murder myself with guilt. But if I were to speak for myself, I would say I was a bit of a slacker back there. I did not give much effort.
And now, I'm so damn worried of what's gonna happen to him next. Will things get worst that would make me more guilty of and have myself to blame and carry this conscience with me forever? Or would all of these come to a perfectly good end?
For now, all I can say is that I'm totally furious at myself and so worried sick for him. And the last thing we need is a miracle.
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